Monday, April 23, 2007

Motherly fear

I am a mother of two. One is my new husbands' and one is my own... I have been blessed with being my sons guardian but I am also cursed with an ex-husband that is emotionally abusive and a bully. He's absent for long periods then comes back into our lives with a mean vengeance. I don't know what I am looking for in this blog, I just feel vulnerable and weak. I am trying to do what is right for my family by not giving my ex too much access and liberty in the workings of our family, but I need to do what is right for my son. How do I handle this? And how do I cope with the knowledge that my ex is willing and capable of kidnapping my son, not to be with him, but to hurt me?

I have been "weak" for the better part of my life. Letting others take advantage of my kindness and not demanding respect. Now, I have more to live for and more to fight for but taking those first few strong steps is hard.

Is there anyone out there that is going through this?

Help

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